on mommyhood

cooing over pat's carys

last monday, patricia gave birth to carys victoria. after months of difficult pregnancy, she is now a very happy mom to a lovely baby.

last week, my friend told me that she made her 15 year old daughter missed school for a week. she caught her exchanging "sweet text messages" with a guy classmate. she even threatened her daughter that she would shave her head, if she finds out she has a boyfriend already.

also last week, my other friend asked if she could give me her and her daughter's concert tickets (priced at P10,000 each!). it's a concert her daughter so looked forward to. but she has been a bad girl so my friend wanted to punish her by not going to the concert. to make the long story short, they both enjoyed rihanna and chris brown's concerts. i was in a cheap club listening to some band doing a chris brown cover (bitter?). she still succumbed to her daughter. boo-hoo!

these mommy incidents made me realized that most of my friends are in mom-land already. some are even bringing up adolescents. i, on the other hand, have not started my journey yet.these made me worry. the madonna-justine timberlake song has been ringing inside my head for a week now. tick-tock! tick-tock! tick-tock!

i know, we all have our own time. but i am really panicking now. what if i won't be able to have kids? no husband, i think i can come to terms with that. but no kids? just thinking about it makes me cry.

call me crazy, but i already have a lot of plans for my soon-to-be children in my mind. hahaha... from schools to disciplinary methods to games i would play with them. i know i could be a cool mom. question is, when will it happen?

friends, this is my baby-lust phase. i had this a couple of years back. i cured it before by buying a dog. a dog that would bite me whenever i get close to his lola (my mom). talk about being a good mom! his lola can't even leave him with me. hehehe

now, it is returning. and i don't think buying another dog will help.

narcissisms

first there was the photofunia...














then, i discovered yearbookyourself....































hay i should minimize my internet hours. loser!
what's next? let's see next week! hehehe.

random thoughts

yesterday, i found out my iPod video was missing. huhuhu :-(

it is one of my treasured possessions and i went nuts for hours trying to find out how it went m.i.a. this is the second time i lost an iPod. i was so,so down yesterday. i couldn't function. after shedding a few tears, i slept with a really heavy heart.

surprisingly,when i woke up this morning, i was feeling ok already. it could be replaced. although i am thinking of buying a cheaper mp3 player. i am unlucky with iPod i guess.

then i thought, my iPod and i had a great year together. it kept me sane during those lonely times last year, kept my company during my boracay,bohol,tawitawi,sabah and singapore trips, and was a major instrument in my decision to have a change of heart.

it was october last year, i was on my way back to manila from a shoot in isabela. i decided to listen to christian songs to actually help me sleep during the trip. that's not even my playlist. it was vond's who put the songs in my iPod. while listening to the songs, i realized how an ungrateful bitch i was. i was crying from isabela to bulacan. i can not stop listening to my iPod until it ran out of power. then it's the start of something wonderful in my life. ;-)

my iPod also had tv appearances (used several times as props on ka-blog shoot) and was used in this publicity photo. o di ba, star?




it has served its purpose on me. sana whoever has it will have as much fun as i did when it was still with me (wag lang siyang makakarma! pagdadasal ko lang siya!)

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e-heads fever pa rin. i am so having a major crush on him. awwww... super major, i actually went to his gig so that this could be taken. hahaha... i thought he was just a blah compared to the other heads.but now that i'm older, i actually find his pa good boy effect enegmatic. thanks porshee for this.




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recently, i found myself reflecting. knowing where i was five years ago, i think i am in a better place now. i know myself better. i have emotional maturity (i think). i have come to terms with a lot of things in my life. i am better spiritually. i find happiness even in my "alone" time. great things are yet to happen. i am happily waiting for it.

in the meantime, just want to pat myself on the back and say ..."YAH DID GOOD KID!"

julie tearjerky

eraserheads, the reunion concert


ok, it's the most fun i've had in months. i've never been this happy in a gig since ONL disbanded. it was like heaven seeing ely,markus,buddy and raymund together on one stage. what seemed to be impossible happened. it's the eraserheads!

just like the rest of the eheads kids (now young professionals who grew up listening to them), i immediately signed up to the red list. when that tobacco company pulled out from the sponsorship, i was one of those who stressed over whether "the concert" will push through. then the announcement came. ticket prices are at P1300 and P800. I don't care. i will pay good money just to see them again.

then "the concert" happened last saturday. it was exhilarating! to give you an idea of what i was feeling that time, imagine smoking a stick of ganja and at the same time drinking a few glasses of kurrant seven. i was dancing, singing and i didn't care about the world.

then the break happened. i was actually surprised to know that they have a second set. well, the speculation was that the concert will just be like a long set, a 45 minute to an hour gig. imagine my excitement while waiting for eheads to hit the stage again.

then the announcement happened. everybody knows now, ely was rushed to ER. they had to cut it short. fine. it was soooo good while it lasted. at least what seem to be impossible happened. i saw them play fifteen songs. it wasn't a rip-off i believe.that's it. i should be contented. but i have a lot of questions in my mind.

if ely was suffering emotional and physical stress, why was he allowed to play in the first place? the fans can wait for weeks or even months until ely can recover. if it was really a bad time, they could have canceled and re-sked. also, raymund said on the news that there could be another concert. in that case, are we paying again? there is no way concert suppliers would give their services free.

i'm glad ely is fine. really. don't get me wrong. i prayed for him. just like i prayed when i found out about his heart attack almost two years ago.

i just have to vent this out.last minute sponsorship pull-out, unconfirmed teasers, speculations here and there, much melodrama, marketing strategy?...i had so,so much fun but these questions lingered.

if you ask me if i'll pay to watch them again, i would. kahit P1300 pa ulit. as long as they could guarantee me that they will give in to their fans' request of a GROUP HUG!


with the "man of the hour" taken 3 years ago

K A - B L O G !!!!!!

"Ka-Blog!: Ang Coolest Teen Tambayan"
Pilot Episode : August 9, 2008

"Sup? I googled my BFF's e-shop, their just-in stuff's the
shiznit! They've got them on Flickr too. Don't tell me you only
friended her on Multiply? Get with it, IMHO Facebook's got more oomph.
BUZZ! You're NR. I'll be AFK now, SYWISY!"

There's so much tech-speak going on among teens, the oldies
might as well have been living under a rock. With new terminology
cropping up each day like spambots (another thing there for the
haplessly clueless to google) on your average website's comments
space, it's like a whole new universe out there—social networking,
blogging and e-mailing are the relatively easier parts, but it's a
different story when things like phishing, twittering, and thread
flaming start to come up. The acronyms, too, are a mouthful: PSP,
DoTA, WoW, and MMORPG for gaming, and the likes of IDK, DND, ROFL and LMAO for chatting. Bridging the gen gap hasn't been easy before, but
all this adds up to make it even more challenging.

The flurry of gadgets and gizmos in today's high-speed world
has upped the tempo of everyday life, and among all, the youth are the
ones that have done the best catching up so far. A new breed of
teenagers has emerged, one that inhabits a parallel society within the
physical: the online world. They create cyber-identities and hook up
with e-friends to walk in virtual villages, and they do it all in
their seats with a couple of mouse clicks.

So we can go two ways at it. We keep gawking our eyes out
in disbelief, clucking our tongues and lamenting at how the good ol'
times are gone, or cringing and shaking our heads as the very
evolution of youth unfolds right before us. Or we tread on the same
path as the rare breed of way-too-groovy moms and cool-as-heck dads:
we go right on with the flow.

Riding the wave is just what they're at, the News and
Public Affairs gang over at GMA 7. They're rolling out Ka-blog! soon,
a first-of-its-kind magazine show that will feature anything and
everything about adolescent life. Each week, Ka-blog! will serve as
the tambayan for teens to get a load of the latest updates, trends,
and information on the many issues relevant to them—from fierce
fashion forecasts to mind-blowing tech toys, the hippest hangouts and
the hottest heartthrobs, as well as more pressing problems that
concern teens, such as relationship and peer issues.



Hosted by the newest and youngest reporters on the GMA
block, Ka-blog! will take teen viewers on a weekly ride to discovering
and examining the wonderful things about being a Pinoy teen. Smart and
chic Andrea Torres, the show's official style sister, will help teens
navigate through ever-evolving fashion and lifestyle trends. Total
performer and tech enthusiast Mico Aytona is the show's resident IT
guy, for the total lowdown on the coolest gaming and gadget stuff.
Athletics and recreation are right up the alley of sporty dude Lucky
Mark Mercado for maxed-out moves to keep active. For teens with dating
dilemmas, BFF problems or questions they dare not ask their family,
wise-for-her-age Monica Verallo is the go-to girl on all matters
personal.

Together, Andrea, Mico, Lucky and Monica are all set to
guide teen viewers as well as their folks, as they deal with the
triumphs and challenges of adolescence. Ka-blog! is definitely going to make a change on their Saturday viewing habits, with a barkada they can turn to at all times, be it for a shoulder to cry on or a best friend to laugh with.

Get ready to tune in to the tube as the hippest, coolest and most exciting weekly program for teens starts rocking your world this August! Ka-Blog! airs Saturdays, 10:00-10:30 AM starting August 9
on GMA-7.

i love these girls

inspired by koryn's blog, i thought of posting our high school barkada's picture. i am so lucky to have these girls in my life. sobrang dami na naming napagdaanan. pero ang maganda sa grupo namin solid pa rin kahit may kanya-kanya ng buhay.marami pa ngang nangibang bansa.

sabi ko nga, i trust these girls the most. kasehodang ilang taon kaming di nagkita-kita, we could share the dirtiest,deepest secrets kapag nakapag-usap na. kapag may isang nangailangan, willing ang lahat tumulong at mag-protekta. dedma kahit kasalanan ang ginagawa ng kaibigan namin.

of course, this is not a perfect group. may panahong may awayan, siraan at pagkakasakitan. ang ibang away pa nga made permanent dent sa friendship. pero mga bata pa naman kami eh. pwede pang maayos ang mga bagay-bagay.

yung iba sa amin, magkakaibigan na since grade school. ang iba naman high school na pumasok. kung bibilangin, magkakaibigan na kami nitong mga babaeng ito for almost twenty years na. ang tagal na no?

recently, i coined a term for our group. i called our group kupsies. mga kupal kase kami eh. hehehe....

pasensiya, missing my-best-friend-mode ako.

yes it will...

Ooh-oo child, things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child, things'll get brighter
Ooh-oo child, things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child, things'll be brighter

Some day, yeah
We'll put it together and we'll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter

Ooh-oo child, things are gonna be easier
Ooh-oo child, things'll be brighter
Ooh-oo child, things are gonna be easier
Ooh-oo child, things'll be brighter

Some day, yeah
We'll put it together and we'll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter

Some day, some day, some day
We'll get it together and we'll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, some day, some day
We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter

Ooh-oo child, things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child, things'll be brighter
Ooh-oo child, things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child, things'll be brighter

Right now
You just wait and see how things are gonna be
Right now...

- the five stairsteps



how i wish life is as easy as picking a nose. this is my nephew coco.